Why the title? Stay awake Cecil?

I’m not very good at naming blogs and such. 

One of the most memorable nights of this phase of my life took place in late January when I think I came close to death, or at least a coma. 

It was during a stretch that I will refer to many times in this blog in the future. For at least a week I basically checked out from reality and experienced a series of nightmares, hallucinations, and flat out scary mental experiences. We think these incidents were cause mostly by an imbalance of electrolytes. 

One night I vividly recall a couple of nurses trying hard to keep me awake for fear that if I fell asleep I may not come back. I never saw the nurses, but I heard their voices and I felt them walking me around the room. 

All I saw was darkness creeping slowly from the corners of my vision. I honestly felt that I was losing control of my life and that if I closed my eyes they were closed forever. 

The nurses saved me, in my mind, by consultantly and forcibly repeating, “stay awake Cecil”. “Stay awake Mr. Savage”.  

I eventually stabilized and survived that night thanks to those persistent and caring nurses. 

Welcome to my blog 

Melinda thinks it’s a good idea to start my blog, probably to ease the pain on her ears as I blab away about battle with my cancer, Multiple Myeloma. Lol. That’s not true, but I do feel a desire to have a platform to keep family and friends informed and so rather than clog up Facebook with my thoughts I’d rather do it this way. 

I don’t know how often I will write. Maybe daily, maybe less. I think the disease my have a lot to say about that. But I do know I need your participation to make it worthwhile so please join the blog and leave feedback on my posts, as you have been doing on Facebook. It’s very important to me as I try to live with and despite of this terrible disease.